Have you ever had one of those days where you think to yourself, “Oh, man…my brain is seriously going to implode. Like, right now this second,” or even “My brain is stretched as thin as a noodle on a pasta rack”? Well, my friends, I am having that day. Or rather, that week. Maybe even that month….
Before I get too far into detailing what exactly it is that is overwhelming me beyond mental capacity, perhaps I should introduce my self:
Hi! My name is Sammi. I am a military spouse, a mother to two beautiful (although sometimes monstrous) children, and recently I have started going back to college. You can read more about me in that fun ‘About Me’ section.
So yes, back to this month. College with two kids and a husband is tough. Like, worse than going to college and having two jobs at the same time.(For those of you that work, go to school, and hold down the fort….I commend you. I honestly don’t know how you do it.)
I would never take it back, but being a military spouse while going to college makes things tough to a certain degree. Whatever career I end up with, it has to be something that can be easily transferred to somewhere else. Right now, the goal is to land a career with a federal government agency. I would really like to work for the USGS as a Hydrologist.
This means lots of fun chemistry courses and geography courses. Right now, I have so many chemistry equations running through my head it isn’t even funny. Guys, I just finished doing about five or six pages of stoichiometry problems for practice. That alone is enough to fry a person’s brain. Now, add this to my other courses, and top it off with a healthy dose of laundry/cleaning/meals/dishes/kids/husband….and by the end of that list I almost feel like a lobotomy is a feasible option.
So yes, I am seriously overwhelmed. Yes, I feel at times that I am at my breaking point.
At the end of the day, when I tuck my children in to bed, I look at their little faces and I remember why I am doing this. I am doing this to set an example to my children. I am doing this so that my husband and I can give them a better life than we ever had. I am doing this for them. That is the ‘why’ that I have to remember. That is the ‘why’ that I have to use to keep my going on those especially tough days.
Life really is a strange journey, but I wouldn’t change a day of it.